Resource for those navigating adverse psychedelic experiences, spiritual crisis and depersonalization and derealization
You Are Not Alone – Healing from Adverse Entheogenic Experiences
If you have experienced adverse effects from psychedelics and entheogenic medicines, and have been tirelessly searching for answers, know that there is a way out of the darkness you find yourself in. You do not have to go through this alone. Together, we heal. This is your message of hope.
Acknowledging All Experiences
You probably heard countless of incredible stories of healing with entheogens—how they helped people overcome PTSD, childhood trauma, or depression after conventional treatments like SSRIs failed them.
Many believe that sitting with these medicines will provide all the answers and bring profound transformation.
However, both deeply healing and deeply traumatic experiences occur. Plant medicines and psychedelics can collapse many years of healing and I have witnessed life's changed in the best of ways. And I have now witnessed many that suffered greatly after experience gone sideways or it was simply too much too soon. One does not have to have a bad trip per se to experience adverse aftermath, though often it is the case. Spectrum of experiences exist. And everyone's experience is valid. No one should be left behind.
It is essential we hold space for the full spectrum of experiences so that no one is left behind, dismissed, or further harmed by rejection and neglect of the community where it happened. Which is definitely a huge thing to reconcile with for many.
Addressing Adverse Effects
Adverse effects are rarely discussed; In medicine circles, you don’t hear these stories because many who experience harm stop participating and are left to navigate their struggles alone.
Even the most experienced facilitators may not know how to support someone going through an adverse aftermath—because they have never had such an experience themselves it is nearly impossible to even convey what you are living through, let alone help someone. And there is gap, many indigenous people do not understand western neurosis and western mind and lack ground level understanding, meanwhile western psychiatry does know acknowledge spirit. Also if emergency like this would happen in the village, you do not need to go make money and participate in a normal life per se.
I wish to emphasize that this corner of the web is for you regardless if what you took was in ceremonial setting or labeled as medicine!
Perhaps you are struggling with:
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A sense of losing your mind
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Loss of self and identity
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Nervous system dysregulation
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Nightmares and sleep disturbances
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Existential anxiety
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Dissociation and Numbness
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Depersonalization and Derealization
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Shattered beliefs and loss of meaning
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PTSD symptoms
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Heightened energetic sensitivity
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Digestive issues and physical weakness
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Psychic attacks
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Intrusive negative thoughts
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Panic attacks
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Body weakness and pains
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Digestive issues
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Heart palpitations
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Vertigo and migraines
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You feel like or told that you are experiencing psychotic break
You do not need to be formally diagnosed with any of the above to validate your experience. If you are experiencing any or all of these symptoms, or more, healing is possible.
I wish to emphasize that this corner of the web is for you — regardless of whether what you took was in a ceremonial setting or labeled as medicine!
I’m here to be a sanctuary for those who are suffering from adverse experiences and are lost for hope — regardless of what happened. I just, on top of that, have a lot of experience with entheogens, so can offer extra support in that regard.
People are left behind by the very communities they trusted. I feel it is where the medicine and psychedelic space is lacking. There is very loud propaganda about life-altering effects, and everyone is reaching higher and quantum these days — however we need a stable foundation for there no shortcuts and we need stable foundation which you will rebuild and it will be catalyst for biggest growth for you, I know!
Healing requires us to crack open beyond the current state.
That is what many healing modalities like breathwork or psychedelics do. But there’s no such thing as only being open to the light. We’re cracked open to all that is. And we can easily lose the thread to the light. And then healing becomes about grounding, integration, and closing the doors.
Also, blasting off — whether ingesting “medicine” or not — takes a lot of energy, a.k.a. your minerals, your light. And sometimes you end up in the dark simply because you depleted your own light.
I mention this because many end up blaming and shaming ourselves, even though we always came from a very innocent place, and there was something deep we were hoping to heal or soothe.
The West might call what you experience psychosis, which is more extreme — or you may by now find out about depersonalization and derealization, or DPDR. I think I had everything that exists in the books, and I am thriving again. You can absolutely get better given the right tools, knowledge, and multidimensional approach — regardless.
If you’ve tried every healer, every trauma resolution modality, and every tool to manage anxiety, every supplement and biohacking trend — and nothing worked — please know: you still can and will get better.
At the hindsight, I wish I did not waste all the money and this much disappointment. With every failed attempt, I was sinking deeper into despair and hopelessness. But you do not have to. It is actually all more simple than you think.
You can regain your life.
You do not have to do this alone. We heal together
You can always come back to love
There are stages to recovery. Once you make it out from this absolute emergency, this can become a great re-emergence. You perhaps feel that you did not have a free will for this to happen but you can decide what you are going to make of it. This set back can be your comeback as the most integrated grounded human. Energy can not be created or destroyed but it can be transformed. On the other side you might find yourself more creative, more embodied, find deeper connections, turn your pain to art, find deeper meaning and purpose if you choose so. We have all fallen into the trap of healing more and fixing and then you are not actually that broken but scared, and it becomes about creating the new timeline and becoming the new self. Whoever you want to be and however you wish to experience this reality. We understand the sheer terror perhaps of what you experience, therefore we put this out there, as a testament that you can absolutely do it. This is my most important message and what I am so passionate about sharing.
You will have to make peace that healing takes time. Even when you’re doing all the right things, it won’t happen overnight. But time alone will not resolve this.
What truly shifts things is when you stop fearing that this is a forever situation. From there, you can begin to rebuild trust, reclaim your agency, and sovereignty.
You don’t have to do this alone. It makes a world of difference to walk in the field of possibility with someone who has been through this journey before you.
For a long time, I believed there was something fundamentally wrong with me—that I was the only one experiencing this. But please know, that is not the case. No matter how hopeless you may feel, you can come back to love.
And remember: we heal in connection.
You can not only recover but experience tremendous growth
It took me a lot of trial and error and resources and desperate attempts to try to tackle the problem to recovery and eventually it becomes about creating the most epic life and foundation is now much stronger.
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Finding greater meaning and spiritual center
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Understanding how mind and nervous system works so you will likely not fall victim for any of mental struggles again
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Tools of self regulation
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Renewed trust and confidence in self and life
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Appreciating your humanity and life itself many times more
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It feels like there is truly more depth to everything!
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And more excitement and much to look forward!
Disclaimer
The content provided on this website is for informational and educational purposes only. It is not intended as a substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, or treatment. If you are experiencing severe distress or trauma related to entheogenic medicines, we encourage you to seek guidance from a qualified mental health professional. Each individual's experience is unique, and the information shared here may not be suitable for everyone. Always consult with a healthcare provider for advice tailored to your specific situation.
